Spoilers: Becoming II
Disclaimer: Nothing is mine; it all belongs to Joss the Torturer
Author's Notes: What are Angel's thoughts at a time like this?
Confusion
Utter confusion
That's what it felt like
Awakening in front of her
As if from a dream
She looked as if
She had been fighting
Fighting something evil
It was only later
I came to understand
That evil was me
She said she loved me
I said I loved her
Ironic that her next move
Sent me through
The gates of Hell
What tortures await me?
None that I don't deserve
None that are vile enough
To repay me for the
Wicked and monstrous misdeeds
I unleashed upon
The very people I care for most
My thoughts turn to her
And all that I put her through
I want only to hold her
Comfort and love her
How she suffered
And continues to suffer
For the love that we shared
Unleashed the most impious
Evil she had ever known
I reeked havoc in her life
Hurt her with my despicable words
At her most vulnerable time
Killed her friends
My friends...
Impugned her reputation
To her mother
I imagine her at this moment
She is blaming herself
For what I have done
And what she had to do to me
She needs to know I understand
She needs to know no one blames her
She needs to know she's loved
I swear here and now
I will make it up to her
Some how...some way
I will find a way out
A way back to her